These words jumped out at me when I read them: “she pondered these things in her heart.”
In her heart? Not her mind? I don’t think I’ve ever heard that before… someone pondering something in their HEART.
I wondered what it meant to ponder something in your heart. Webster states it this way: “to think or consider especially quietly, soberly, and deeply.”
That made sense to me. She thought deeply about the baby that was placed inside her womb, miraculously.
I wonder if she pondered why she was chosen for the Gift?
I wonder if she pondered how she’d raise Him?
I wonder if she felt inadequate?
The baby in her womb was going to change her life, and the lives of everyone who believed in Him.
The baby was promised for many years, and she was about to give birth to Him!
I would’ve panicked and I might’ve asked God to choose someone else. I probably wouldn’t have believed that I could provide Him everything He needed to fulfill His calling.
Then I pondered, in my own heart, if I’ve provided my own children, (these four precious gifts I’ve been given), with everything they need to fulfill their calling.
I heard God lovingly whisper that it wasn’t up to Mary to do that, and it’s not up to me. Mothers, even single mothers, aren’t expected to do it all alone.
When mothers make room for someone else to help, and lift their children up to the God who knit them together, or lay them down at the foot of the cross… the baby who died for them will help them.
Jesus died because He wants to help. He died because He WANTS to love. His love is so gigantic that it burst out of that grave and is still spreading out over the world!
It took me several years, and several mistakes, to realize that I couldn’t raise my kids alone.
Once I looked up, when God did not give up on me, I realized that He is their Father. He is a Father that will provide everything they need. He planned it all out before He chose me to carry them in my womb!
I wonder if Mary knew that she wouldn’t have to do it all alone?
I wonder if she had the same peace that I experienced once I surrendered my ways to His?
The greatest gift isn’t under the tree.
The greatest gift is something that’s offered as you ponder Christmas in your heart.
A baby that became a man who loves you so much that he died for you. He died so that you would choose to live with Him and His Father in heaven forever! ♥️